I Am The Empire

What year is it? How many years has it been?  Where am I? Why am I here?  Why am I poking this dead animal?  Some part of me doesn't care..... here it goes:

I Am The Empire

I am the empire 

I am the war machine

I am the beauty passing

By you unseen

I am the emptiness that

Comes after and before

I am the steps it takes to

Walk through that open door

Cause the best place to find the truth

Is right in front of you

You are the empire 

You are the war machine

You are the notes that capture

The essence of my melody 

You are the ugliness of

This world we're born into

You are the beauty of all the

Things that surround you

Cause the best place to find the truth

Is right in front of you

We are the empire

We are the war machine

We are the love that passes 

Between you and me 

We are the poetry that
We speak unrehearsed

We are the silent truth of

This infinite universe

Cause the best place to find the truth

Is right in front of you

Dust (reprise)

Sorry I haven't posted for a long while.  I have more content that I hope to upload soon.  This is my attempt to turn my poem "Dust" into a song.

And she walks down to the shore

Up to the edge of the waves

The distance to the sunset

Is matched only by her gaze

And no strings bind her

That would keep her from going where she wants

And I hope peace finds her

But I fear there is nowhere she belongs

And her home is like the dust from God's fingers

Cast everywhere, but never stopping to linger

All empires crumble to the ground

But men still seek to build them tall

There all built on foundations unsound

She knows as she watches them fall

But they still laugh at her

Cause she has nothing in their eyes

But it doesn't matter

Because she sees through truth's disguise

And her home is like the dust from God's fingers

Cast everywhere, but never stopping to linger

It's hard to love this girl

Who's happy to pass me by

But I want to see her unfurl 

The love that she carries inside

And I want her to spread her wings

That she's so afraid to unfurl

I want her to laugh and sing

And spread her love throughout the whole wide world

And her love is like the dust from God's fingers

Cast everywhere but never stopping to linger

Ghost Song

I'm sorry I haven't posted in a long time.  Eastwind only has one place on the edge of the community where I can access the internet and I rarely get up here.  Here's a song I just wrote.  I don't have a recording yet, but we do have a recording studio which i should really become familiar with.
Ghost
The ghost of the past
The size of the life it encompasses
 Pulls you back
As you try to anticipate how it will haunt you next

But you must realize
That you are more than the flesh and blood that
Hold you back
Awaken to the dawn burning in your eyes

Let go of your ghost
Its just a memory that fades when you
Open your eyes
To the new day that surrounds you

Even the dark
Can’t banish this light
the present reveals
When you silence your mind

And realize that you are
All that fills your eyes


I spent a lifetime haunted by
A ghost I could never escape
Until I looked into God’s eyes
And from my slumber I did wake

And I realized that even when this body passes away
That I would never die because only my ghost dissipates

Until that day
Nothing meant anything to me
And darkness reigned
So long as I desired not to see

But when I opened my eyes
that moment I glimpsed the divine
I was changed
And my mind was clarified

And all I felt was love
For all I could see

All lives have these moments where
Everything falls into place
But then they disappear as they came:
Without a trace

But if you let go of your desire
Ghosts wont chase those moments away
And you’ll live forever in this love
That greets you like a brand new day

So let go of your ghost
Its just a memory that fades when you
Open your eyes
To the new day that surrounds you

Even the dark
Can’t banish this light
the present reveals
When you silence your mind

And realize that you are
All that fills your eyes

An Ejection From Your Conformity To This Reality

A Walk Down Mainstreet

Walking Away From Mainstreet

Beckoning you to come in,

It painstakingly carves out an emptiness it claims was always there:

Tomorrow's freedom 

Transformed

Into the uncertainties of a daily life passing away into ghosts.

Ghosts that carve their space

To pull you inside

To deny you an untouched happiness they promise you on shiny surfaces

Behind the windows' ephemeral glass

Shimmering mirage: inside a love that will only pass.

Desecrate its temple: 

Do not walk inside.

Turn away and look into my eyes.

My love bought only when you relinquish all that buys:

Embrace the fullness by pulling away your guise.

Life tread on water with futures unplanned:

Tell me, have your feet touched upon these lands?

Unkown

I could only tell you what it's like to be there
And yet you will never know how it can be felt
I would only try to explain what cannot be said

Describe the unknown
The unknown

I could only try to show you how it might be
But still your heart would not be able to see
I might leave you to yourself to think about that

Think of the unknown
So unknown

I can feel this place that is somewhere out there
It is this place that asks for nothing in return
All it ever asks is for me to feel right at home
And without words

I will gladly stay
In the unknown

You might think that some words
Would not dare to fail me
And yet there are none that I can
Try to bring about
You could only try to make me talk about it,

But it stays unknown
It's unknown

All it ever asks is for me to feel right at home
And without words

I will gladly stay
In the unknown

I will never try to find words where there are none,
And yet some will try to follow where I have been
I will always try to keep this place inside me

Where it is unknown
It's unknown

All I see Is Fire

Life:
Illumination
Smoldering embers waiting for a flame,
For a moment of clarity,
Burning bright in the night of time.

Illumination is the night
Pushing forward life's eternal movement:
Sustenance of Being in the twilight of its revelation

Present is the flame
Brighter in the immanence of its realization,
In the clarity of its all embracing love
Cast aside by the ignorant
In favour of the darkness: its own creation.

Embrace me in this love
As we walk together in our fire
Through these lands of embers and darkness
Wanting nothing more
Than to see this whole world in flames.

Life Sized Ghost

Lyrics:

Place your dreams where they're meant to be 

Name your price to be at ease
To comply is to lose our innocence
Now I am not so innocent

Life size ghosts 
Have come rushing through the cracks
Life size ghosts
They have come to push you back

Cut your ties they have lived to die
Trace your hand round an untouched land
Or watch fortune's skill
As it becomes invisible
Now will you be invisible?

It's Only You

Patriot

Patriot
Thrown into the air
Millions of red petals
Flew up in an ecstatic frenzy
Wavered for a moment
Then fell to the ground

Not yet fallen, I glimpse them
In suspension
Watched them in their imaginings
Thinking they could take flight
Like the eagles that command the skies

But they will not find their rapture in war
Millions of petals burning
A holocaust of roses
Greet the clear eye
Burnt out eyes

How many years blind?
scrounging the rosebuds
Degenerate food, degenerate religion, degenerate culture
Marlboros, christmas shopping and sex on TV
Religions of hate versus a multiculturalism of self-loathing hypocracy

But it's so easy to lash out
Lash away from your self-introspection
Towards an outside you barely understand
Finding unity and solace only in their new equality:
"Slavery is for white people too"

But I know the ground from which we're cast
Rich soil of freedom
Now aflame with that sterilizing heat
Aflame with dollars, violence and atomization
That crisp the ground and singe the roses apart

They only grow taller in the ground
But we can feel taller in the air
High on inflation, corn syrup and cocaine
The cheap thrill of stealing a neighbor's seed corn
Gorging oneself on a future that will never come

But for now the petals dance
At the height of their decadence and beauty
Unbeknownst to them
As they struggle higher
Away from the flames destined to consume them

I am one of these petals
But I do not look to the sky but to the bud
My home enveloped in flames
As I reflect on the future awaiting me
Dreaming of the bedrock I hope lies underneath….

Starchild

Sunrise
Touches eyes
Trembling before its glory
Along with all they see

Life-giving light
So primal
In its beauty,
Sparkles red and purple
Through the leaves and their birds singing praises of the darkness falling away

I have come here to meet the sun

Through this drama
Played out endlessly
Over and over
Before and after the last man
I stand
Its lonely child
In awe of its divine indifference to all that it illuminates

Why is it so easy
To find beauty in what lies so distant
While at the same time human company
Draws only the distance of a vacant stare
Towards the specific vagueries which numb the mind to time's passing
And throw one into the endless circles of monotonous conversation

Beauty
So apparent from far away
In the sovereignty of the sun over my head
Dissipates
As the proximity increases
In the words of a friend or the glance of a passer by

My mind
So enraptured by the inhumanity of the open sky
Cringes
When it brings its focus closer
To its own fractures refelected in the regular imaginings of other minds' eyes

But I am still with the sun this morning

Ensconced by the warmth of its rays
My awareness stretches
Moment by moment
My experience reaching out
Enveloping everything in my gaze
Feeling myself a blink in the eyes of the sun and stars from which I'm made

Snow Fall

Tonight
Reaching out to shadows in the darkness
I find old poems

Each word
Like the snow flakes outside:
Conceived in the black of night
They were admired only as they fell:
Each a unique jewel
Before they melded with the others on the ground

And when sunrise came
(Just as I know it will come tomorrow)
And the storm stopped
All the snow looked the same
In the daylight…

But in the darkness anything is possible
So even now I can reflect
On the gentle violence
Of ignorant words
And the softly falling snow...

Journey

This is the story of how I found the communes…

http://www.thefec.org/communities

Journey
And they say that I live in my own world
And that I walk through this life in a dream
And my words seem to melt into the air
Cause when I talk they turn away

So I wondered aloud
About this world that I found

And I asked "am I the thoughts inside my head?"
And they said "yes, you are that and nothing more"
And when I said "no I am everything else"
They said "no you are not" and shut the door

So I wandered alone
From this place in which I thought I was home

So I wandered through fields
And valleys and mountains
Through cities and country
And continents and nations

But I went through all these lands
As a foreigner and stranger
And they looked at me through eyes
As if I walked out of their dreams

Their dreams…


It was then as I walked somberly
Through these lands that had forsaken me
That I found my people dreaming the dream
That I had always dreamed…

And I found in your eyes
the truth that we are all we see

And we'll show them that our love
is more than just a dream

And they'll say that we live in our own world
And that we walk through this life in a dream
But we'll show them that our love is real
And we'll show them a new way….

Lost Between These Walls

No home and no job.  I am ensconced in chaos.  I'd like to feel I wear it well, but I fear I am not the person I wish I was.  I am a seeker of freedom and no walls enclose me, yet I am litterally building them up as you read this.  Everything we create must be maintained.  Man's creation requires his constant re-creation of creation.  

Just as the pyramids are slowly grinding down into sand, so my identity slowly disintegrates even as I try to grasp at the grains as they fly away.

I cannot re-create what I thought I was, but I still long for the illusion of that past self...

It used to be that I looked towards the immediacy of the future and saw myself in everything -saw everything as myself, saw God, saw Identity, saw One.  Now I look forward and see nothing - uncertainty, Being, Void. 

Buddhists try to rid themselves of ego.  "No-self"they call it.  But the most enlightened among them admit that this is impossible.  Even the egoless always has a minimal presence.  A minimal ego that lets there be an attaining of "no-self".  The smaller the ego, the harder it is to shatter.  If it shatters, however, the void bears down that much harder and the seeker of light finds darkness that much more blinding...

Dreamself

Sorry I have been MIA for a while.  Here are some more song lyrics I've written.



They say
That when you are awake
That you are you
And I am me

But they say
That when you are dreaming
That you everything
'Cause your mind creates all that it sees


But what if I told you
That it never changes
'Cause when you awaken
You're still dreaming
And the world that surrounds you
Is all that you are
Cause the mind that percieves it
Arises from everything

And your life is the world's dream


But sometimes
Your mind runs in circles
And the love that's between us
Seems so far away
And the future expanding
Along with your past
Takes you away from the present
And all that you are here and now

And I wrote this song for you

Cause your life is the dream of the world
And your life is the world's dream

Meeting A Stranger For The First Time

Another song for you... still no recording though.  In the meantime I'll give you another song:

Meeting  A Stranger For The First Time

Walk down these streets while their feet and their faces

pass me by

They move as if they’re in a trance or as if I’m not

Really here

And I look into their eyes

And they look away

Cars driving up to the stoplights

Honk in their rush to get away

The streetlamps block out the moonlight

And I’m left here waiting for a sign….

And you appear under streetlamp’s glare

And In your eyes

I see you there

Noise from the city surrounds us with movement

But for me everything is still

An unspoken feeling, surrounding, expanding

To you, and me, the city…

And I’ve always lived for these moments

Where everything falls into place

Nothing between us but silence

No words could pierce our gaze

[bridge]

And you walk towards me

And my eyes can feel the touch of your smile

A dream all around us

As you walk by

[bridge]

I feel your smile though you dissolve into the crowd

City’s rhythm pulls you away into the emptiness of the streets

And I turn around

As you walk away

And the birds calling out from the rooftops

Tell me what I felt wasn't there

And I’m left here standing in silence

As the city pulls me away...

And you turn around….

Bitcoin

I've decided to start taking any and all donations in bitcoin starting immediately. I've been watching bitcoin for a few years now and have become more and more excited about it the more I learn about it. Bitcoin is a de-centralized, open-source crypto-currency. Bitcoin is fantastic because it is not dependent on any one institution and thus has no hierarchy (for example, a hierarchy of the government above the people) inherent to its structure.

 Here's an annoying video to explain everything to you

 In many ways, Bitcoin is like Gold:

 I do not believe that gold and bitcoin are really in competition. Rather, I think that bitcoin is in competition with central bank paper.  It provides a peer to peer alternative to paper promises issued by a centralized authority.  One can literally walk up to someone on the street, and exchange physical gold for digital bitcoin.   I believe this currency could make the entire banking industry obsolete in the long run, since one no longer needs to trust the institution issuing paper.  Rather, this trust is placed in cryptography as well as the bitcoin network which is so vast, taking it down would be, like the man in the video says, like taking down the internet.

Gold is money: it provides the store of value, safe from counterparty risk.  While Bitcoin functions as currency: instant, digital, easily transactable and highly portable.  Both of them are anonymous and neither of them is dependent on a centralized institution for their existence.


Right now bitcoin is in its early stages and is extremely speculative and volatile.  I am not posting this, encouraging you to put your savings into bitcoin but rather, I am posting this as a show of support for bitcoin itself.


If you're new to this blog you might want to check out some of my poetry.


Anyway, if you like what you read here, drop some BTC in the bucket!

Sol Invictus

Sol Invictus

For a moment it was all I felt:

The dawn,

Ephemeral

As its young wavering light,

Touched my eyes…

For a moment I was there:

My eyes,

No longer mine,

Dissolved into the light

In the rapture of their rays…

For a moment everything was perfect:

The trees

Silhouetted on the horizon

Waved their branches

Beckoning me to forget my boundaries…

For a moment I was nothing

For a moment I was everything

For a moment I was completely present…

First Bike Ride

First Bike Ride

my hand wraps around the handle

like a nostalgic  mind holding on to a memory:

caught up in a futility it refuses to recognize

grasping too tightly

so that the knuckles turn white

but still unable to keep it from slipping away...

Time: New Revelations

Time: The Vulgar Understanding (Hegel, Dialectic)
Present burns forward
In its eternal struggle
To light dark futures

Time: The Christian Must Shed His Veil (Michel Henry)
God gives present In
A moment not meant for us
Until we meet it